August 29, 2008 ~Face Down~

This is one of my favorite songs right now. It's been out for a while, but with the style of music it is, I haven't understood the words until I really tried to listen(I'm pretty sure that means I'm getting old). Today I looked up the lyrics and fell in love with the song. Thought I'd share:

Hey girl you know you drive me crazy
One look puts the rhythm in my head.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.

Cover up with make up in the mirror
Tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

{Chorus}Do you feel like a man
When you push her around?
Do you feel better now
As she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend,
One day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down,
A new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
Every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.
I see the way you go and say your right again, Say your right again
Heed my lecture

Chorus}
Do you feel like a man
When you push her around?
Do you feel better now
As she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend,
One day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down,
A new life she has found.

One day she will tell you
That she has had enough
Its coming round again. (repeat)
{Chorus}
Do you feel like a man
When you push her around?
Do you feel better now As she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend,
One day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down,
A new life she has found.

Face down in the dirt she says,
This doesn't hurt
she says I finally had enough.. (repeat)

August 26, 2008 ~ Jesus Loves the Little Children ~

With school starting, Camryn and I have been transitioning back into a schedule where she actually has a bed time and has to sleep in her own bed etc. Her bed time is 8:30pm. Those of you who know Camryn, know she is a bit of a chicken. She tends to follow me around the house from room to room..ya know, just to chat or just because she wanted a hug, just because she loves me...or whatever other reason she can come up with to answer my question of "why are you following me around?". I mean, I literally can't go to the bathroom alone. Anyway, last night 8:30 rolled around and I told her to go get in bed, I would be in there in a minute for prayers. She obeyed (yippie). I kept hearing her singing, but didn't think much of it. After a little while she would come to me with an excuse to try to get me to come in her room. I knew it was because she was scared, but thought she needed to go get in bed and just try to deal with it. (Thoughts of her in her 20's following me around room to room because she was scared haunted me.) She went back to bed only to come back to me after a few minutes, all the while, I'm hearing her sing. By the 3rd visit by her, it hit me what she was doing. The SECOND she walked out of the room I was in, she started singing "Jesus loves the little children...". I could hear her in her room singing it loudly. All I could do was smile. Bless her heart. Normally when she's scared I tell her to sing "what time I am afraid I will trust in Thee". This time, I knew she was singing "Jesus Loves the Little Children" to keep herself from being scared. It was really sweet.

August 20, 2008 ~ An Extreme Experience ~

So, Extreme Makeover Home Edition has been in Bigelow, Arkansas building a home for a sweet 10 year old boy who has suffered most of his life. Who lives in Bigelow and knows this family? One of my best and dearest friends, Barbara! She and I had the once in a lifetime experience of going out to the house as it was being built. They had buses that would take out out to across the street. Let me just say WOW! Camryn and I loaded up Sunday afternoon and went out there. We all 3 jumped on the buss to go see the progress and hopefully catch a glimpse of one of the stars of the show. When we pulled down the street and I saw all the security I started to get really excited, so I devised a plan with Camryn. If we got to meet Ty Pennington she was supposed to pooch out her lip and say "I don't have a Daddy"..pour on some tears and follow up with "will you be my Daddy?" I thought it was fool proof...Camryn on the other hand, told me I was crazy. Oh well, it was worth a shot, right?!?!


As time went on we discovered that Ty was in New York, so we knew we wouldn't get to see him. Surprisingly, that didn't discourage me. This experience was amazing...Ty or no Ty! However, after a while of being out there Eduardo comes out!!! He is.. umm...HOT! After over an hour of him shooting ONE clip over and over (yes we were out there well over an hour..its Extreme Makeover for gooness sakes!!) he finally came over to the spectator fence where I GOT TO GET MY PICTURE WITH HIM!!! Later, as we were standing along the fence I notice Paul walking by. I waved and said hi (trying to play this cool) and asked if I could get a picture. He said sure and came over and let us take some pictures with him. These are some of the nicest people I have ever met! I was truly amazed!


On top of meeting them, I got a $5 discount on the shirt I bought by promising to come back later in the week and model it and got asked out by the project manger!! WOOHOO! What a good day.


I went back yesterday to see how far it's come (and to keep my word in modeling my shirt). It was completely done on the outside. They had the grass down and flowers planted and were pouring the driveway. Flooring was going down inside and they are supposed to be done by tomorrow! Absolutely amazing. Before we went out to the house, Barb and I saw Eduardo at THE store in Bigelow, so of course we stopped. I was walking around a convenient store with EDUARDO!! Even shook his hand. At the house we saw the blonde girl on the show, but didn't care so much about her..lol Yes, I realize I'm a little star struck, but whatever!!! :) By the time we left, Barb and I had made friends with 2 security guards (Jordan and Shag), the t-shirt guy (James Brown..not kidding), Todd the project manager and Adam, the guy who we think only drives around in a golf cart! It has been such a great experience. One I'll probably never have again and certainly will NEVER forget! I'll post more pictures when I can get them. For now, here is this one!

P.S. My date with Todd is Sunday!!!

August 19, 2008 ~ First Grade, First Grade ~

Well, in case you didn't already know, I have a grown child! She started 1st grade yesterday. FIRST GRADE, y'all! That's a number grade...only 12 more. UGH! This year she has to wear a belt. My horror was that she wouldn't be able to undo the belt in time and she would pee her pants. When I asked her if she knew how to work a belt so she wouldn't pee her pants her response was "Uh, yes, Momma" like she was disgusted that I would even ask such a thing. Silly me, it must have slipped my mind that... she's GROWN. *sigh* School day came and she was up and ready to go. Below is a picture of an excited child. She was totally dressed by the time I had my make up on and was putting on her socks and shoes without being told!


This was the middle of her tragedy of the un-matching shoes!


Dear Lord where has time gone? She's not a baby anymore.


Excited about her lunch box!


I can stare at this picture all day long. I can't get over how grown up she is. Right about now she was telling me how her tummy felt a little funny over first grade. There she is...there is my baby who still needs her momma's comfort. My goodness they grow up fast. (I'm just hoping above all hope that they don't start fractions or long division in 1st grade!) So it all begins...my little caterpillar is starting to spin her ca coon.

August 13, 2008 ~ A Morning Laugh ~

I had to laugh to myself this morning, as I was taking Camryn to daycare, at Mothers and the things we do. Today was bike day at daycare. The kids could bring their bikes and ride…duh. Anyway, I crammed Camryn’s bike in the back seat since it wouldn’t fit in the trunk, and had her ride to daycare in the front. We don’t live far from the daycare, so I figured it would be ok. After I gave her the lecture about sitting still and if we see a cop not to move, she buckled up and we went. When I pulled into the parking lot, I see a car behind me with a bike hanging out the window. I see another car with a child in the front and handle bars all up in her face. As I was leaving daycare I see another Mom pulling into the parking lot with her trunk all the way open and a bike sticking out the back. It made me chuckle. It’s such a little example of what Mom’s will do for their kids, but it also spoke volumes.

August 13, 2008 ~ A Moment to Brag ~

After a rough start to the year, with Camryn not wanting to dance, she has decided she does in fact want to dance. We got the letter from the studio letting us know what all she made. She got her 2 large groups that she is required to be in, she also made a small group, duet, trio and solo. Because this is pricey my mom (who helps me out so much…Camryn couldn’t dance without her) and I got together with Camryn and told her she needed to choose one out of the duet, trio or small group. She was put in a duet with a cute little girl named Callen, who is a year or so older than her, and a trio with 2 little girls who haven’t done a trio before. Camryn decided that she wanted to do the duet. I was kind of glad, since she did a trio last year…ya know, I like to mix things up.
Along with the letter, they send you a “drop sheet” to list the dances you want to drop. We were kind of curious as to what would happen if Camryn kept the duet and Callen dropped it. When we got to the parents meeting on Monday I told Camryn to ask Callen if she was keeping the duet and she said she was. WHEW! Just to make sure, I decided to ask her mom. Her mom very emphatically said “yes” she was keeping the duet. She went on to say that at first she thought “hmm, I would have never paired them together” then she said she got really excited! She even said she had nightmares and woke up at 3am in a panic thinking “what if Camryn’s drops the duet”!!! She went on and on about how excited she was that they were dancing together. I was so proud to see Callen’s mom so excited that she was dancing with Camryn!! I just had to take a moment to brag!!!

August 4, 2008 ~ A Little Prayer Request~

For some time now I’ve seemed to have this burden to do something in order to help even one person though an abusive relationship. I know what I went through was nothing like so many women go through, however, I feel like it could have been had God not poured out his mercy on me and gotten me out. I’m still not sure what I’m supposed to do with what I’ve learned, and I’m not even certain of everything I’ve learned yet. I don’t know if I’m supposed to write or what. Lately, at night while I’m lying in bed saying my prayers I have had a few thoughts pop in my head. I want to write something using these, as I feel they were given to me. Please say a prayer that God will make it clear to me what I’m supposed to do or say or write. I’ve been praying that he will give me the words and help me in whatever it is He wants me to do. The things that seem to be yelling at me are the following:
Be Still and Know that I am God
Divorce is not the unpardonable sin
Unexpected strength
How we tend to be the “monkey in the middle” blocking God’s will in our lives