November 23, 2009 ~ This song...Oh, this song ~

So I'm sitting in church Sunday when the preachers daughters go up to sing a special. The second I hear the song it took me back to a time in my life that, although it was horrible, I'm thankful for it. When I was married I used to sing this song over and over. I remember being home alone when the boys were at school and the ex was "working" and just sitting in my room sobbing and singing this song...clinging to the words as if my life depended on it. Sunday I tried to fight it, but the tears flowed as I remembered the desperateness I used to feel. It was like every single word I could relate to. It was the hope I needed and the assurance that one day, when I finally learned to depend on Him, I would be freed from the bondage I was in.

"Things change, plans fail.
You look for love on a grander scale.
Storms rise, hopes fade
and you place your bets on another day.
When the going gets tough, when the rides too rough,
when you're just not sure enough.

Jesus will still be there.
His love will never change,
Sure as a steady rain,
Jesus will still be there.
When no one else is true,
He'll still be loving you.
When it looks like you've lost it all
And you haven't got a prayer,
Jesus will still be there.

Time flies, hearts turn,
a little bit wiser from lessons learned.
But sometimes, weakness wins
and you lose your foothold once again.
When the going gets tough, when the rides too rough,
when you're just not sure enough.

Jesus will still be there.
His love will never change,
Sure as the steady rain,
Jesus will still be there,
When no one else is true,
He'll still be lovin' you
When it looks like you've lost it all
and you haven't got a prayer,
Jesus will still be there."

amen and amen

~For Sale~

I'm trying to sell this TV. It's a 32" ilo. Works great. I'm asking $175 obo.

I'm also trying to sell my old wedding set. It's beautiful, 14kt. yellow gold. Total 1.44 ct diamonds. The round center stone is .50ct. It was appraised in 2003 for $2600. I'm sure it would appraise for more now that the price of gold is so high. I'm asking $1500 obo. Thanks to Billie of Moments by Billie for the beautiful pictures of it!

Either of these items would make great Christmas presents! Especially the rings for that lovely lady in your life ;) (see how I pretend a bunch of people read my blog...even men?!?!?!) Feel free to pass my blog along if you know of anyone who might be interested!

November 5, 2009 ~ anyone have some humble pie? ~

Yesterday was mis match day at school. When Camryn got home last night she said that all the kids were talking about her because they said her stuff wasn't mis-matched enough. I told her it was too, that I certainly wouldn't let her wear that on a normal day. My friend Barb was with me and she said "they just couldn't tell because you looked so cute in it". A few minutes later she says this...

"I'm not bragging but I do look pretty cute in everything"

*sigh*

November 2, 2009 ~ Gabriel Austin Ross ~

I didn't have Camryn this weekend, so I spent the weekend with my BFF Barb and got to keep Gabe!!! He is the most precious thing ever and of course the closest thing to a boy I will ever have since I have decided I do not want anymore children. Anyway, Saturday was halloween so of course he had to have a costume and I found the perfect one at Target. I was a bumble bee last year so I had my costume and found Gabe a bee costume (picture of him at the bottom, I left out the one of me heheheh). I also found him a sweater, which somehow I didn't get pictures of and this christmas hoodie that has a candy cane on the back and it says "sweet". Even though he looks as though he hates me for these clothes, he really does love! :) I can't wait to see him again!!!



P.s. Camryn gave him the middle name Austin....just incase Santa brings a boy dog!! :)

Oct. 29, 2009 ~ Speechless ~

Do you want to be moved this morning????

Go you youtube and pull up Nicole c Mullen My Redeemer Lives and listen to it...really listen to every word. WOW!!
I heard this on the way to work and needed to hear it today. There are just no more words needed, when you listen you will understand!
p.s. and watch the one that is 10 minutes 40 seconds...it's worth your time. TRUST ME.
p.s.s. WHEW....i just had church up in here at work watching this!!!! Ok, I'm done with my p.s edits...LOL

Christmas GIFT!!!!!!!!

THIS is what I'm working on for Camryn for Christmas. I found this on arkansasmatters.com and have been emailing with the lady. She has agreed with me on a good price for yorkies and he is registered and comes with papers. He is 10 weeks old and up to date on all his shots and worming. I'm supposed to meet her this weekend in Conway. She has two of these lil guys and will let me pick. She is also bringing the parents for me to look at their size etc. Then Camryn's grandmother told me she was sending me money to put towards this precious thing and it is over half of what I will pay for him. AND....I have two people who are willing to keep him until Christmas, letting me keep him at home on weekends I don't have Camryn. Everything seems to be falling into place. I'm keeping my fingers crossed!!!

I was wanting a girl so we could name her Gabriella and dress her in pink bows and sparkly collars...I mean uhhhh...so Camryn could...this is ALL for Camryn....everything for the kids....anyway....this one is a boy and boys seem to be cheaper (as they should be..haha) and I have read they have a better temperament. And let me just tell ya, in my house we certainly don't need anymore female temperament. We have our share. So I'm totally fine with having a boy. However, the delima of the name and the pink came up. I thought to myself, he would never know he had a girl name and wore pink so I'll just stick with that. I mean, I had a boy cat with a girl name, right?!?!? It was then that my mother reminded me of how mean that cat was...and it was probably because we called him Gracie and all the other cats on the block made fun of him. And really, if I decide to breed him and get stud fee's (wink wink) I doubt people will be interested to buy a puppy who'd dad's name is listed as "Gabriella". SOOOOO, I decided on Gabriel and probably gonna call him Gabe. AHHHHHH....so excited. *AHEM* I mean, Camryn will be so excited! :)

And have I mentioned that this lil guy seriously has already stolen my heart?!?!? I can't hardly even stand to look at his picture because he's so cute it hurts me! I love him and he loves me already!!!

October 1, 2009 ~ Santa's Broke ~

Forever my heart has belonged to big dogs. I love my Chewy girl and she sounds mean so I feel good about her being in my backyard. Lately, though, I've had a desire for a cute little Yorkie. I mentioned to Camryn that one day we may get one, but they are expensive so not any time soon. MISTAKE! Ever sense then she has talked about wanting a yorkie. I mean, I want one too...I sort of already have a name picked out...Gabriella and we will call her Ella. I can just see her with a cute little bow in her hair (which will be kept short) and a cute pink sparkly collar and how cute she will be to take everywhere with us....I'm just sayin....it could be fun... but at the same time, more responsibility...just what I need *sigh*. I sorta talked myself out of it due to the added expense and responsibility and seeing as how I'm not getting child support and broker than a joke I don't really need any added expense.
This morning Camryn came to me and said "Momma, when it's my turn to be student of the week and if it's after Christmas, will you bring the Yorkie cause Mrs. Young said we can bring small pets". *Ahem* My response: "Ummm, what Yorkie?" She said "I'm getting one for Christmas" I said "How do you know you're getting one for Christmas?" She said "Ummmm I'm putting it on my list" (like DUH) I panicked a little bit and said "Cam, Santa doesn't always bring you everything on your list". To which she replied "He usually always does" *SIGH* This is what I get for getting things on her list and giving the list to grandparents and relatives to get the rest. I'm holding out hope that in these next 3 months, someone at school will let the cat outta the bag about dear, sweet, BROKE Santa!!!!